for so long
i wanted you to hold me
until i realized how small you
needed me to be to fit
within your grasp
– butterflies rising
Read More →for so long i wanted you to hold me until i realized how small…
Tag: Abuse
the beautiful things they do…
The Beautiful Things They Do…
if you keep trying to find love
with people who are broken inside
you will spend your energy and the moments
of your life, so lost, searching for understanding
of why they do all of the harmful, destructive
things they do…
but if you can be patient with love,
and save yourself for a love
with someone who is whole within,
then you will get to live your moments
and spend this journey endlessly in awe of the
way they do all of the stunningly
beautiful things they do.
– butterflies rising
Read More →an “i’m sorry” under every breath…
i’ve apologized for myself for so much
of my life… and i’m still learning how to take
up space without feeling like i’m holding an
“i’m sorry” under every breath.
– butterflies rising
Read More →overapologies…
i know that i will never, ever be able to love myself if i keep apologizing for how other people have decided to feel about me.
– butterflies rising
Read More →arbitration…
dear broken people…
please stop disturbing people
who are working on themselves
and starting to heal
if you’re just going there to break
them again or to try to make them do
your work for you too
– arbitration
– butterflies rising
Read More →if it needs you small, don’t let it hold you anymore…
if it needs you small, don’t let it hold you anymore.
don’t let anything that needs you ordinary
tame you ever again.
– butterflies rising
Read More →an unshakable bond…
and every time they try to make
you feel unworthy…
just go towards yourself. choose to love
yourself more. and build such an unshakable bond
with your worth that there’s just nothing they
can ever do to take you away from it.
– butterflies rising
Read More →unburdening…
breathe easy now…
you don’t have to carry other
people’s heavy anymore
– butterflies rising
Read More →growing wings…
i didn’t know how to measure my worth,
and it led me to someone who measured his worth
in attention from her, and also her, and her…
and any other her to hurt me
he thought there was power in possession and pain,
and that a man’s kingdom should be built
on the stepping of her back and the forfeit of her crown
so i forfeited. and i faded. but i’m learning things…
like how real lovers don’t come in numbers. they aren’t prisoners.
they’re not meant to be suffocated, or left for granted…
and how i’m full enough of wonder to hold someone’s attention,
that my full voice matters,
my full-bodied existence is beautiful,
and that a man on the strong side of oppression isn’t
the same thing as a man who is strong.
– butterflies rising
Read More →breathe through and release…
on forced forgiveness…
not everything finds peace through
forgiveness. it just doesn’t. and trying to force
something you don’t authentically feel can
not only keep you from healing, but it can also
be a reinjury to your spirit.
sometimes you just feel it in you,
how forgiveness is asking too much of you,
and it’s not because you’re holding on, it’s because
sometimes the burden of that shift,
that closure, that resolution, it isn’t your work.
it’s the other person’s energy to move, and you cannot
move energy for others.
with those things, let it be ok that all they ask of you
is to breathe through and release.
– butterflies rising
Read More →recovery…
i’ve been held
by rough hands…
and i’m still healing.
to let a good man, be a good man,
it takes a new way…
and i’m still learning.
– recovery
– butterflies rising
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