when it matters…

but did you love her with an ache when you had her?

you say it aches,
how much you miss her…
but did you love her with an ache when you had her?

you had every bit of her full attention,
but where was yours?
she broke her heart open for you
again and again… and you just. kept. closing yours.

and so you lost her. and now you learn…
you learn that holding has to have wanting,
and appreciating, and valuing. you learn that love
isn’t static. it’s kinetic, it’s movement,
it’s growth and curiosity. you learn that there has
to be just as much
there has to be more wanting in the holding
than there is in missing, or in reaching for.

you learn that you have to ache for people when it matters…
you have to love someone when you have them.

– butterflies rising

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i don’t know if there’s anything harder to let go of than the way a song makes you feel about them…

and when it ends... i don’t know if there's anything harder to let go of than the way a song makes you feel about them

and when it ends…
i don’t know if there’s anything
harder to let go of than the way a song
makes you feel about them

– when a music lover loves

– butterflies rising

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another life…

i can no longer wear that shade of unworthiness, or hold that self-unkindness

and if you
took me for granted…
you must know that that
was another life.
and i have found my way
to a new life.
and you are just not welcome here.

because i can no longer
wear that shade of unworthiness,
or hold that self-unkindness,
that let me live a life
where the people i let close to me
ever treated me as anything less than
a blessing in theirs.

– butterflies rising

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and every time they try to make you feel unworthy…

just go towards yourself. choose to love yourself more.

and every time they
try to make you feel unworthy…

just go towards yourself.
choose to love yourself more.
and build such an unshakable bond
with your worth that there’s just
nothing anyone can ever do
to take you away from it.

– butterflies rising

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