empty companions…

it’s just never been in me
to avoid loneliness with another
and try to call it love.

– butterflies rising

i promise,
once you learn to love
who you are,
it won’t hurt anymore…
all of this pain from the one
who didn’t love you.

you will love you, so it just
won’t matter anymore.

– butterflies rising

i have worried my heart
far too much about what i am worth
to those who were not worthy
of my heart

– butterflies rising

he wanted me to feel
jealousy towards her, but i didn’t,
i just felt compassion for her…

i too had once known the devastating
lack of self-love required to be with him

– butterflies rising

i am allowed to have my own worth.
to find my value in who i am.
not in who i am to a man.
not in who i am to whom i support, or serve,
or take care of, or carry weight for.
not who i am in the context of
anyone else’s story.

just who i am, as i am…
bare, alone, unburdened, beautiful, and worthy.

– butterflies rising

Lost And Found…

first, i got lost
in his eyes, and in his words,
and in his arms holding me…
then i got lost in all the lies he told,
and i was just… lost.

but then i looked myself
in the eyes, and i started to find my voice,
and i learned to hold myself up,
and i began searching for my truth,
and now… i’m finding my way,
and i’m finding myself.

– butterflies rising