little seeds, someday flowers: version 2…

little seeds, someday flowers... today i will be good to myself, and tomorrow maybe a little

little seeds, someday flowers…

today i will
be good to me,
and tomorrow maybe
a little bit better,
until being good to me
is a little easier,
and maybe even someday
not so hard at all.
maybe these are just little seeds
but i’ll keep giving them
touches of sunlight…
just a little hope here
and a little grace there
and a little more light in those
places holding all the fear,
and then maybe all these little seeds
just might grow until someday they
become flowers…
and then i will be made of flowers.

– butterflies rising

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there are things i am learning not to apologize for…

there are things i am learning not to apologize for... the way i express myself the way i am discovering myself

there are things
i am learning not to apologize for…

– the way i express myself
– the way i am discovering myself
and growing into myself
– the way i take up my own space…
the space that is meant for me
– the things someone else may not like about me
but that i like about me

…because none of these things are anything wrong
with me. they are things that are right in me. and those
are things i should never have to be sorry for.

– butterflies rising

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your heart tells you big things in little ways… little whispers and nudges. different rhythms. little truths…

your heart tells you big things in little ways... little whispers and nudges. different rhythms. little truths. - butterflies rising

your heart tells you big things in little ways…

little whispers and nudges. different rhythms. little truths.

the gentle ones… like ease. and safe. and ‘it’s going to be ok’.
and ‘you are worthy’… maybe you don’t believe those yet, but they are for you.
let them come to you again and again until you can let them in because
they are for you. they are for you. they are for you… let life hold you.

and the less gentle ones, the uncomfortable ones… the ‘this is not for you’
and the ‘you can’t stay still here’… you can try to ignore them, or rearrange them,
but they’re going to linger until you listen. and what they ask of you may
tangle you up and turn you inside out, but they are trying to set you free.
so take them in, and listen.

and what you don’t… what you won’t listen to… those aren’t going to stay little.
they will become yearning. and ache. and the more you fight them, they are going
to pull at you and pull at you and pull at you until they eventually break you open…
and maybe even break you apart. but they are going to awaken you. and cleanse you.
and shift you. and grow you and grow you and grow you until they can turn you
into something so beautiful that you never before even knew you could become…
so let it all crash right into you.

you are made of heartbeats. and pulse. and instincts. and they are your compass.
and your truth. and your freedom. they are your way out… and your way home.
so let them guide you and awaken you and grow you and crash right into you if
they have to… whatever it takes for you to listen.

– butterflies rising

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