to be steady in the soul and wild in the spirit…

to be steady in the soul…
and wild in the spirit

– butterflies rising

now that i know you exist…
how do i not love you.
how do i not follow this gravity towards you.
now that i feel this, how could i ever not. feel. this.
i don’t know how i could ever be here in this life
and not. love you. i just have no choice.

but then… you made a choice.
and now i have no choice.

and i don’t know how…
how will i be here in this world
with you somewhere else in this world.
how. will i learn to pull myself out of this gravity
and not feel this anymore now that i have felt. this.
how…
now that i know you exist…
how do i not love you.

– butterflies rising

now that i know you exist,
how do i not love you

– butterflies rising

…the kind of boy who would
never break a pinky swear

– butterflies rising

i haven’t felt
what i’m meant to feel,
i have not loved
who i’m meant to love,
i haven’t yet been
who i’m meant to be…

not yet.

– butterflies rising

he said…
“it’s a long walk home”,
but i never could’ve known just
how far we would roam…
how long i’d have to hold on.

– butterflies rising

Lost And Found…

first, i got lost
in his eyes, and in his words,
and in his arms holding me…
then i got lost in all the lies he told,
and i was just… lost.

but then i looked myself
in the eyes, and i started to find my voice,
and i learned to hold myself up,
and i began searching for my truth,
and now… i’m finding my way,
and i’m finding myself.

– butterflies rising