the exhale…

all of it made sense now, and none of it mattered anymore.

i stood there
in front of you
and i thought of everything
that had ever broken me,
i thought of everything
that had ever shattered my heart,
and in that moment when i looked at you
i thought of how maybe
i’ll tell you someday.
but for now, i just exhaled.
and i spoke nothing of any of it…

because all
of it made sense now,
and none of it
mattered anymore.

– butterflies rising

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angels and earth: some of us just aren’t made for how hard the edges are here…

love a little deeper, and burn a little brighter, and maybe, just maybe, we make it a little softer here for someone.

some of us just aren’t made
for how hard the edges are here,
for how slow pain moves,
or how lost light can get,
and how heavy it all can weigh…

we’re surely not made for how flawed humans love.

but while we’re here…
we can try to love a little deeper,
and burn a little brighter, and maybe, just maybe,
we make it a little softer here for someone.

– angels and earth

– butterflies rising

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i hope you can hear this… when your soul is suffocating…

it's been so. damn. hard. but you've been so brave.

i hope
you can hear this…
when your soul is suffocating
from all the things you just. can’t. say.
as they chew at your chest,
and you ache and crumble
until you become nothing
but mess and madness
gutted. on the floor.
and in the dark. and it’s so. dark.
that even the moon hides and the stars
go quiet and anything that ever
sounded like a way out just. goes. quiet.
i hope you hear this… it’s been so. damn. hard.
but you’ve been so brave.

– butterflies rising

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something a little bit like faith…

i will not take care of my fears today. i will not feed them or tend to them or give them any space. - butterflies rising

i will not
take care of my fears today.

i will not feed them or tend to them
or give them any space.

and if i do not take care of my fears today…
what i feel tomorrow might be something
a little bit like faith.

– butterflies rising

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