growing wings…

my full-bodied existence is beautiful

i didn’t know how to measure my worth,
and it led me to someone who measured his worth
in attention from her, and also her, and her
and any other her to hurt me

he thought there was power in possession and pain,
and that a man’s kingdom should be built
on the stepping of her back and the forfeit of her crown

so i forfeited. and i faded. but i’m learning things…

like how real lovers don’t come in numbers. they aren’t prisoners.
they’re not meant to be suffocated, or left for granted…
and how i’m full enough of wonder to hold someone’s attention,
that my full voice matters,
my full-bodied existence is beautiful,
and that a man on the strong side of oppression isn’t
the same thing as a man who is strong.

– butterflies rising

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lightwork: what you have… it isn’t here yet…

whatever that light is... it’s your work here

what you have…
it isn’t here yet.
what you hold, what you are,
it’s why you’re here.

maybe you create, or shift and change,
or just love in a way this world doesn’t know yet.
whatever that light is… it’s your work here.

those things you feel in you
but don’t yet see,
you’re meant to breathe them
into being.

– lightwork

– butterflies rising

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maybe sometimes we’re delicate, and unsure…

hoping for gentle in the unknown

maybe sometimes
we’re delicate, and unsure,
and we don’t know what we’re ready to want,
so all that we’re really looking for
are people with good intentions towards us…

hoping for gentle in the unknown

– butterflies rising

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breathe through and release…

not everything finds peace through forgiveness

on forced forgiveness…

not everything finds peace through
forgiveness. it just doesn’t. and trying to force
something you don’t authentically feel can
not only keep you from healing, but it can also
be a reinjury to your spirit.

sometimes you just feel it in you,
how forgiveness is asking too much of you,
and it’s not because you’re holding on, it’s because
sometimes the burden of that shift,
that closure, that resolution, it isn’t your work.
it’s the other person’s energy to move, and you cannot
move energy for others.

with those things, let it be ok that all they ask of you
is to breathe through and release.

– butterflies rising

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