if there is anything i want to be… i want to be the most passionate version of myself…

in february… i want to be the most passionate version of myself… to feel and feel

if there is anything i want to be…
i want to be the most passionate version
of myself… to feel and feel… and follow what i feel,
and inhale love and be love, and exhale any fear…
and this version of me won’t apologize
for having a heart on fire

– butterflies rising

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i don’t know if our nervous systems are made for social media…

i don't know if our nervous systems are made for social media... to have so much noise over our own inner voice

i don’t know if our nervous systems are
made for social media… to have so much noise
over our own inner voice trying to influence
who and how we should be…

but i’m learning to say things like…
“who and how i want to be can’t be shaken
by what’s outside of me. i need to like me…
and that’s what i’m going to
let matter to me.”

– butterflies rising

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i miss what it feels like to believe in sunrises…

i miss what it feels like to believe in sunrises. to wake up feeling like... today will be good

i miss what it
feels like to believe in sunrises.
to wake up feeling like… today will be good,
beautiful things will happen,
and nothing will hurt.
but the world just keeps breaking
my heart again and again
and again.

– butterflies rising

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whenever i see someone talking about how small & controllable women need to be…

whenever i see someone talking about how small & controllable women need to be if they want to be loved

whenever i see someone talking about how small & controllable women need to be if they want to be loved, it just makes me want to write more poetry about how bright we get to be and be loved.

– butterflies rising

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on heartbreak and healing… there isn’t just “something to be fixed” here; there’s a journey to take…

i have to believe that pain doesn't just wear our hearts out; that it stretches them with purpose

on heartbreak and healing…

there isn’t just
“something to be fixed” here;
there’s a journey to take…
you aren’t going to go through this
just to go back to who you were before.
and this heartbreak may feel
like a burning season,
but there’s a promise in this violence…
the healing will be a blooming season,
and alchemy is the way through.
you’re meant to come out of this something
different and beautiful on the other side.

– butterflies rising

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this heart won’t give up…

i have to believe that pain doesn't just wear our hearts out; that it stretches them with purpose - butterflies rising

this love story
has been a slow fall.
and these wings
have been a slow unfold.
and there has been a fight here
for my worth, and it sure has
been a hard-fought one,
and this road home has been a long one…
but there’s a little bit of light here now.
and even though it’s been a long
time coming… the light is coming.
and as uncertain as i am
of how much farther i have to go,
i know now that i’ve got it in me to keep going.
and until i feel free… i know now that
this heart won’t give up.

– butterflies rising

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the same kind of fierce and reckless passion…

i have to believe that pain doesn't just wear our hearts out; that it stretches them with purpose - butterflies rising

we can fall into others with so much intensity and gravity, but then, when it comes to ourselves, we can struggle just to find a simple acceptance. but what if self-love is so much more than just a tolerance of yourself. and what if the things that feel like they are just leaving you on your own are not, but they are asking you to learn to choose yourself… and to do it with the same kind of fierce and reckless passion that you have chosen others. and what if that’s what this part of your journey is for.

– butterflies rising

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