he wanted me to believe…

he wanted me to believe in the universe

he said,
close your eyes for just one moment
and imagine…
what if everything you fear is an illusion,
and all these things you dream
are what is real

he wanted me to believe in the universe

– butterflies rising

he wanted me to believe in the universe

that madness in my soul

I had grown up believing in a universe that wanted me to be afraid, and he wanted me to believe in a universe that loved me. And that kindness from him completely settled the madness in my soul that night.

We are no longer in each other’s lives, but I’ll carry that night, and other things from him with me forever. That night alone was a big step in my journey of learning to go inward for answers and a sense of peace. Because of him, my life won’t be the same… I won’t be the same.